I still did, but this was different. Leaning against James I realized that I loved him, too. Her I wanted and loved as a companion, as a sister to sha...re experiences with and to make happy when I could. Him I wanted to do the same, only more so. Him I could imagine spending my life with, and having kids with. I wondered what they would look like, and if he wanted boys or girls. And how many? Two would nice nice, I thought, Being an only child was boring."Jesus," I think it might have been Mindy,. I caused me to reflect on the terrible loss of steady “Abe” at a time when he was needed the most. The scheming carpetbaggers from back east were making victims of the American Indians, the defeated southerners, and the poor immigrants getting off the ships at all the points of entry with little opposition from the minions of government. In a way, the military were getting screwed as well, because our supplies were often sold to other groups and we were being told to “tighten our belts” and. "Mrs Andrews regained her composure first. "This is indeed a great honour for my daughter to be chosen in this way but she has never done anything like this before and is quite shy." Keri still unable to speak stared at her mother with frightened eye's, just say no she thought. "Do not worry, I saw you two walking in, she is a natural and Francine will assist her. You would be most welcome to attend to her backstage Please! once again."Mrs Andrews now totally carried away said "Of course we. I don't have a thing bothering me. Let's go ask Casey."We struck out with Casey, Jane, and Karen. Not a one of them had so much as a scratch anywhere. Scotty piped up to volunteer though."I've got a cut on my hand mister," he said."You can call me Billy Joe if you want to Scotty," I said."Ok. I've got a cut on my hand Billy Joe," he said, and smiled."Would you mind putting it in the ice chest for a few minutes?" I asked."No, but I hope it won't be too cold," he said."We'll take all the ice out.