Then whatever he was using to blackmail Paula would become public knowledge. How does one thwart a blackmailer?That evening Paula was quiet and preocc...upied. Even our daughters noticed it and asked her if something was wrong. Paula offered some lame excuse about thinking of new ideas for a literature course she was teaching. Somehow, the girls accepted it.That night in bed, Paula was all over me. She gave me everything a man could ever ask from a wife and would have continued, if I had been. I said that I have watched them and have a good collection hidden on my laptop. She said she also want to watch it. I said ok let me see what I can do.So one fateful day I was alone at my flat as my sister was out of the station and was not to come for 3 days. I told Asha that she can come at my home and we can watch porn films together. She agreed and I picked her up from her hostel and we came back at my home.There was an awkward silence between us while coming home. Once we reached home I. "You know the strange thing, Number 1? I couldn't figure out why theydidn't apply those disks when you punks were growing up...that would'vestopped you." He laughed, "But then, we wouldn't be able to fill theselarge organ lists without you guys out there screwing up...now wouldwe?"He continued laughing and then added, "The best irony of it all...youwill still be haunted by the cloudy memory of your past deeds as youlive out the next few months...that is, until your brain slowly matchesthe body. Kevin called an hour earlier and said that he will be leaving at 0400, the next morning for Iraq. When he told me, my stomach dropped and I ran outside. I grabbed the railing, and screamed."No!" I cried as I dropped to the floor.The front door opened and I heard Kevin's footsteps walk through the apartment. He walked up to me and lowered himself on his heels, pulling me into his arms. I wrapped my arms around his neck and whimpered, "I don't think I can do this." He tilted my head up and looked.