" You said in a sing-song voice.You dip the foot of your stocking into my mouthful of piss. You work it around in my little washbasin with Your rubber... clad fingers. You use my nose as a scrubbing board! Over and over, back in the pee, then back to the nose! "Hmm, that wash water is getting pretty foul, isn't it? Time for a drain and a refill!" You pull on the string of Your tampon and unplug my throat. You pinch my nostrils shut, and simply smile at me. I know i wont be able to breathe until i. You can’t see past your hurt and pain to see what’s in front of you. I know we both have our differences, and I know that what you see in me is not what you’re looking for. But what I feel for you is more than I’ve ever felt in my whole life. I can feel my entire soul flow with love every time I think of you, see you, even when I’m even sitting next to you. It’s the simple things that you do that make me love you. The way you brush your hair away from your face and tuck it behind your ear. The. It's necessary and healthy. But we need him to work through it. So go home and set a timer for twenty minutes. And during those twenty minutes, twice a day, Ray can be as angry and upset as he wants during that time. He can be mean and hateful. But Ray, it is controlled. That means when the kids are not around. That means it must be about the affair. And it almost goes without saying that it is not physical." How does that work?" Ray asked."For those two periods of time a day you can be angry. You know? But I think ... I decided ... there is something different. Something unique and precious between us. I mean more than just the wonderful one between mom and son. I don't know what it is, but I'm glad it's there. Also, I don't trust all of your sex education to come from ... well, others who don't know much more than you at this age. Not all of it. That's what I think and you are stuck with it! OK?" OK, Mom. Great. You were a great first date."She giggled. "Our secrets, eh?".