But only to him. I can’t blame myself. There was more to it than that. So much more. But that’s the way it goes. He’s over and done with me and ...I sit here rotting. Waiting for the scar tissue around the hole in my mind (where all of the things I believed about him have been distorted, warped, changed and ripped out) to harden. Waiting for the scars across my torn fingerprints to close and fade into one of the many lines that say so much without speaking. He worked his way into my fingerprints.. She panted lightly, partly fear and excitement, and partly all the hard work of swinging that bottle. Which now dangled limply from her hand, twisting in her grasp so its pirate label seemed to be doing ballet. Within the hamper all was still, silent, innocent, at peace with itself and its bathroom surroundings.It's a ruse, she thought. Not only possums can play possum. She wondered if opossums were dangerous, did they bite?Hesitantly Sarah reached in with her bottle, slowly shifting aside the. We went to some of the social activities and Terry fit right in but still very shy. I just loved being there as a closeted CD and watching Terry work on social skills. The other gurls doted on her.Terry always was reluctant to engage with others in the gay community. She did not feel she was gay. When she came home or I visited, we would dress and love each other but neither felt we were gay. We would go out to restaurants and gay bars. I in civvies and her totally passable as my daughter. We. .” Ghok begins after several seconds without a response.“No, no,” she cuts him off, “I don’t mind trying explaining it. It’s just ... I don’t know if I can.” She takes a deep breath in. “A lot of bad shit happened after our first time. The all the crew and team died except me. Everything was fucked up, but it really wasn’t when we got back. I mean the government didn’t press and we didn’t offer.” She meets his gaze with this last remark as if telling him thank you for lying. “I suppose when it.