I still could not see him but was very excited by the mystery of it all. "Keep playing with yourself, because I have some questions for you, and I wa...nt some honest and passionate answers," he teased, " I figure a sissy like you will be more eagar to respond that way." Here he was, the man I had wished for for so long, and he had me completely in the palm of his hand. I felt so vulnerable, so exposed, yet so erotic in the presence of a man I couldn't even see! He started asking me questions.. Perhaps there has been a mistake." "As I have said, there has been no mistake. The money is definitely missing. The only question is where we go from here." He paused. "And you have indicated that you don't want the police involved." "Yes Sir." "So. What is your counter proposal?" "My counter proposal?" "Yes. How will you settle this matter without involving the police." "Um." I really didn't know, but I had to come up with something. "Well?" "Um. Well Sir, I could make up the shortfall from my. I looked in my mirror. "My life isa failure. A total, complete, and utter failure. But tonight, Karl andPaul go down." Tears mar my mascara and ruin my makeup. He still isn'tback when I load up my purse and walk out of the dorm.I smile to hear my heals click on the pavement. A clearing breath, Lifealways feels better dressed. Too bad. I walk into the common area. It isearly enough that there are a lot of students about.Immediately a girl I don't know approaches. "Are you okay?" No. This is the. Tyler looked at me and I told him we could stay if he wanted to and Mark got up and left the room, coming back in a few minutes with a couple of towels and a bottle of lube.It was about four months after Tyler and I got married when he brought out a bottle of personal lubricant to use for our sex. I was still so hung-up on things that I never really thought about sex when I knew we were going to have it, I never prepared myself mentally and emotionally so I wasn't nice and juicy like I am these.