I was lying because I was hardly hearing what she said after the bit about placing your soul in their hands and trusting them completely, because that... obviously referred to what April had done with me that first night in her apartment when she’d offered me everything she had, everything she was, and I’d been too stupid to appreciate the generosity of her offer. In the state I was in, I was realizing how stupid I’d been about a lot of things, how I’d taken her for granted. ‘Is that how you felt. Wo bola wo sab mein ni janta h. Tum jano. Ma rone lagi mein khadi khadi sab sun rahi thi aur mujhe bhi rona a raha tha. Tabhi mla bola thik h per ek shart h. Ma boli thik h.Toh wo bola pehle mere kamre mein chalu wahi batunga. Ma uske room per gayi mein wahi khadi rahi. Ma adhe gahnte baad ayi. Aur thodi tnsn mein thi.Ham waha se ghar chale gaye. Ma bahut tnsn mein thi aur bata bhi ni rahi thi kya baat h. Ma ne papa ki daru ki bottle nikali aur pine lagi. Ma bahut pi chuki thi meim baar baar ma. Their waiter brought them coffee and buck's fizz (Why isn't it called 'doe's fizz', Effie thought.) and took their order. It was hard for the girls to resist the appeal of a cooked breakfast after their exertions of the previous night but, in the end, smoked salmon and scrambled eggs on wholemeal toast seemed a reasonable compromise between something healthy and something sustaining. The two of them were tucking in as Cherie Cola swept through on her way to check out, her soccer playing males. How Kim's friends saw themselves and their situation also differed tremendously from how a group of people in the US might react to a similar situation. Kim knew that Eloisa never stopped blaming herself for what happened to her friends, but how she dealt with that guilt was extremely productive. She believed that if the others had been so willing to sacrifice for her, it was her duty to be as successful in her personal life as possible, so the others could feel good about the sacrifice they.