For me to think at all about whether apunishment was right or wrong was selfish, arrogant, insolent, stupid,useless and an invitation for punishment i...n itself."So now, do you have some idea of what a bad maid you've been?" Yes Housekeeper." Do you now agree that you made a very long list of failures, and thatyou still missed the most important things off it?" Yes Housekeeper." Do you agree that for you to think about whether a punishment is fair,or unfair, is silly?" Yes Housekeeper." Do you. .. ‘Stop it! Get off him Valerie! You should be past this sort of thing now my girl!’In that instance I knew what was implied; our activity was not decent.Something precious had been replaced by a guilt complex. It had also induced a deep sense of shame into my sexuality.Much later in married life, I discovered that only a guilt-ridden fantasy of Dan allowed me to climax fully.For me sex was a cocktail which included a shot of Dan and a shot of Shame.But since my husbands death, all that had. " What?" Now I'm going to have to fucking tidy my room aren't I?" You bet. See you in the morning?"One knock for yes.I hadn't jerked off in bed since I'd drilled the hole into Jesse's room. It felt weird somehow, knowing he was there, that if he was awake he would hear. And Jesse seemed to be having less bad dreams, though I still woke whenever he rolled and hit the wall. For such a tidy guy his unconscious was certainly messy and rebellious. That night I went for a long shower. I did all the. "Hmmm?" I moaned as I continued to tease him licking and caressing his cock, but still not taking it in my mouth. "Suck it cocksucker" he commanded. The magic words, I took him into my mouth working the head of his cock with my tongue, savoring the taste of his precum before burying my nose in his pubis hair. "Oh fuck" he cried out as I swallowed several times milking his cock with my throat. I worked my magic on his delicious cock for at least fifteen minutes, then pulling off him I looked up.