I squat, place a finger tip to my hole and squeeze. I use two fingers to collect my expulsion and moan quietly as I push my fingers into my mouth.What..., for the Love of God, did I just do? I can't believe I did that without a thought. Then just as quickly I think to myself, I did exactly what came natural and you know what? I'd do it again! I am faggot,hear me roar!I feel so naughty, I feel like I've fallen through the looking glass. I feel like all my preloaded morality is coming crashing down. The caravan didn’t want to stay all that long but he wouldn’t let them go until I returned.“I told him that you would be safe, but he didn’t listen to me.” Chandra pouted at me later.“It’s his responsibility to keep everyone here safe and to get us to your father. Now go apologize to Allard for undermining his authority.” She did, but wasn’t happy about it. Celia looked smug when I sent Chandra off. So, I had to even up the equation or I wouldn’t hear the end of it.“As for you, have you talked. ' 'Hey Dan,' she smiled back. 'And I know, it's such a warm day! I've been sweating all night and morning.' 'Yeah? How'd the sleep with Mike go?' Alice froze. 'You've spoken to him today?' 'Just briefly, we passed. He said it was one hot night and morning too.' 'Mmm,' Alice said. She relaxed. Mike probably didn't tell Dan what happened. She was glad it was all over with. Dan walked behind her and whistled. 'Wow, s*s, you look amazing today.' Alice blushed, but didn't turn around. She was up to. The school wanted to know any depression from the rest of the student body.I slowly scan the book and remember remembering being a bit of a nerd, I would always stutter around them. I was also having slight issue with blackouts during this time. The blackouts sometimes lasted for few minutes while others lasted for whole night. The worse blackouts occurred about the same time after seeing the girls the last time before they committed suicide.As I scan the title of the first page I can recall.