As time went on, the fantasy continues to grow in my mind and she would continue to ask but I would not tell her. One day at work, I googled realistic... black dildo. I was shocked at how realistic some of them were. I got caught up in looking at them and imagining one of them sliding inside of Traci. I finally picked one out, it was a replica of a black porn star. I was nervous as I ordered it then I got more nervous when I got the email that it had shipped. What if she found it first? Would she. It was the first time I'd ever gave a blowjob and compared to all the porn I'd watched, this was almos the biggest cock I'd ever seen. I went to my knees and flipped my head back and I brought my face forward and stuck it into my mouth, swashing my tongue around and lubricated it as my pussy throbed. He groaned, leaning back his head and his arms fell to his side as I did the job. I brought it in and out and between every pause, I stuck my tongue to the tip and teased it and I could feel his. God, I hurt inside. I just wanted to stop hurting, I just wanted Mark to love me again.There was a minibar. I licked my lips and crawled to it, opening the little fridge and pulling out the first alcohol mini bottle in there, downing the liquid. It burned as it ran down my throat, feeling warm in my belly. I grabbed another, Absolut vodka, then I downed a Jack Daniels. I just wanted the pain to go away. I just wanted my Mark back. I grabbed a Jim Bean and chased it with a peppermint. " Don't worry," I said. "I'm sure we'll think of something to keep the excitement going before you return home."What that would be I wasn't sure but I didn't want to get sucked into a bear baiting contest between Ana and Kirsty.As we turned into Kirsty's street she let out a sigh, "It's a shame it's all over." It doesn't have to be," I said.Kirsty frowned at me and Ana asked, "What do you mean?" I'd have thought that was obvious," I said smirking, "All you have to do is take off your jackets.