Alone again, I delved further into the experience I felt at the orgy, spending day and night contemplating it and any way I could make it happen and m...apping out a methodology to amplify the experience when and if it did. Out of my constant thoughts, my obsession, I developed a way to contemplate while participating in the world, a sort of dual consciousness. The day it fully developed, when instead of snapping back and forth from one focus to another like blinking in REM sleep I was able to. Well, I wanted them to mean something, but I wasn’t going to press. I did try to think about work and getting things done instead of Bella. That wasn’t easy. One day during a slow afternoon we were hanging out in my office making small talk. It was casual, there was flirting, and I thought maybe I could push a small amount. “Bella, mind if I ask an odd question?” “Go ahead.” “How come you never wear those Mary Janes you wore to the interview?” My heart was racing a bit after asking this,. Apne Deepak jija ji ko dekhe hona. Ekdam patle hai. Maine aj tak chudai nahi karwayi thi. Shadi se pehle. Itni umeede thi unse. Lekin kya bolu ekdam sab ulta niklaa. Unka lund dekh kar toh ekdam mood khraab hogya. Mujhe muh mein lene ko bolle.Poonam:- Main bhi mana nahi kar sakti thi. Mujhe woh dam laga kar chode. Lekin mujhe kuch frk tak nahi pdha. Aj hamari ek beti bhi hai lekin married life mein woh maza nahi. Khud ka nikaal kar woh khush ho jate hai. Main kabhi satisfy hi nahi hoti.Rahul :-. I told her that she was idea for modelling but being on the short side she’d never make the catwalk; telling her to get herself latched on to a photographer an use him to get her portfolio. I’d been asked to a wine and cheese party by the local mayor and councillors; telling me the invitation was for two, I’d asked my girl in the studio if she’d like to come, however that particular evening she’d already made plans for; then she told me to ask the girl who visited me two days prior who’d.