But it still makes a difference. I feel energized, and my last few sets go amazingly well. My top squat at 160 pounds goes from four reps to five. ...I throw in extra reps on the stiff-legged deadlifts, the dumbell lateral raises, add a couple of pounds to my overhead press, and even a set of 20 pushups goes off without a hitch. Mindset makes a big difference, but I can’t fool my body. By the time I’m done, it knows it’s been worked harder than it ever has before. Sonia’s not the only one. If you can’t take a little bit like tonight, then go back to your house and think about whether or not you want me. I want you, just not right now.’ She withdrew her hand and turned her head away from him. The conversation was over and I could tell the relationship was rocky. We heard him make his way out the door and soon after that, an engine started. Tires were then heard digging up a bit more hot air and the ‘Alpha male’ became ancient history if only for me. I was impressed that this girl. For the first time I start to agree with my inner schoolgirl. I have a desire to hide behind her, an overwhelming need to cover up. My inner schoolgirl quietly wraps a quilt around me and is hugging me tightly. “Are you okay?” I make a halfhearted attempt to squirm underneath you but it accomplishes nothing. “What’s wrong?” you ask as the energy seems to get sucked from the room. Again, I try to pull my arms down. It’s with a sense of urgency and anger. I try rolling side to side to throw. " He laughed and then extended his hand to shake, "Again, I'm Mark." I'm Paul." I said, shaking his hand."What ya say?" He held out the joint again, "You want to get high?" Oh, yeah," I stepped aside so they could enter, "sure, why not?" (Hang out) I made a nervous laugh as they walked into the front room.Brad sat on the left side of my couch and I sat on the right; Mark sat in the easy chair a few feet away from me. Mark lit the joint and took a deep drag before he passed it to me and I took a.