The folks took some convincing that my cottage didn’t have a landline or anything, but eventually they had to accept my incommunicado trip. I’d ju...st lost my job after all – who wouldn’t want to get away from everything for a couple of weeks? It would have to do, anyway. I’d rather die than tell my folks where I am headed. I keep wondering if any of the other girls starting tomorrow are on this train, but I’ve hardly seen a soul at any of the country stations we’ve stopped at. I wonder if. As I am new to sex, I said you guys go and fuck I will go in the last. Two of our friends done and it’s my time. I am tensed and scared, my cousin came into the bedroom with me where the prostitute is sitting and waiting, my cousin to the girl that he is new and virgin you know how to deal with fresh guys and winked at her. She smiled. He went out and I bolted the door, and I went near her and she started undressing and unzipped me and stroking my cock, she is a pro. Of course, she doesn’t care. I lived a victim of my thoughts, and they tortured me with second guesses, failed hopes, and tired dreams.I was truly and completely dead when my soul accelerated toward...What???The first thing I felt was ... hot. My body – I suddenly knew I had one – was hot. It was terribly hot and I needed rescue from the heat that tormented the body I didn't know I had.Hands...I felt hands all over my body. They traveled everywhere, and they were very wet. The wetness contained some elixir that cooled me. He was nervous, though, and he felt the same tension in his wife.“Are you sure you want to do this, honey? We can always go through the adoption route. Who knows, maybe the doctor is wrong?”“Sweetie, I’ll always love you, but I am a woman and I need a c***d. The doctor clearly said that your sperm doesn’t match my egg [ok so this is not a biological reality – but this is a story], so this is the only way without waiting years for the adoption process. Also, think of what you could be doing.