He motioned to it with a flourish. I picked up my part sticking the flowers to my nose and batting my eyes at him in what I’m sure was more a sycop...hantic display than the coquettish one was going for. ‘For me? Oh my, flowers and gifts. You do know how to spoil a girl sir.’ I pretended to turn serious. ‘Is it your dirty laundry?’ He laughed and undid the top draw string and opened the top. He pulled out a rumpled t-shirt and I was confused for a moment before I laughed with him. He slid the bag. To celebrate some TV landmark, which you could not care less about, ITV2 ran a video competition to become the “Celebrity Juice” presenter for one night. The film you made got you into the final 10 and then a panel of Leigh Francis, Holly Willoughby and Fearne Cotton judged a 5 minute practice run to see who would be the most entertaining host. Your experience of hospital radio made sure you had the confidence to keep talking while others dried up, even though it was hard to keep concentrating. What is this, Ray? A divorce?" That's right, Janice, a year and three quarters too late but it's here, at last, thank God." So where am I supposed to go now? I'm broke." That is so not my problem anymore, Janice. After the two freaking lousy years with your BS. Do you actually think I give a damn? Go back to the guy you've been doing, have him take care of ya, I had it with you, as the divorce papers say." Janice, as your Mom, I have to ask, how could you treat a good man so lousy? You take. Everybody else I slept with had a much harder body. Even Marta and Zar were hard bodies next to Belen. But Belen and brought forth children, and that drew me. The idea of making children was essentially indoctrinated into me as one of my drives. My grandfathers both said, “Royalty is not about you now, it is about your future generations.”As we talked more I also concluded that it was didn’t hurt that she desired me so strongly. Tied to that was a part of me that viewed her as an attractive.