" Why can?t she understand that it was never your fault," Joan remarked almost bitterly, "even when you were a crossdresser?"They all nodded.Just then... the door opened and May and Emma walked in. Of course, except for April and Summer nobody knew who they were since May looked so different and this was Emma?s first time at a meeting.Summer and April went over and greeted them and the others followed their lead. They all welcomed them warmly just as they had with April. Renee, Joan?s wife, took. ‘I’m mad at you. Go away.’ I pouted at him. ‘I know you are.’ He responded, leaning in and kissing the back of my neck just below the hair line. ‘But that doesn’t mean you want me to stop.’ ‘I want you to stop.’ I told him looking him in the eye, and meaning it. ‘No you don’t.’ He said and kissed me. His kiss melted my resolve. I didn’t want him to stop. I turned around and he pinned my shoulders to the wall. ‘Tell me you love me.’ He demanded. ‘NO.’ I asserted. ‘The last time I told you I. "She took my hand and we walked for some time holding hands. At the time, I didn't think much about walking and holding hands with a girl, I was just concerned about getting my message across to her. That's the way it's always been with me, unfortunately. I was usually on the prowl, thinking sexy and more often than not I overlooked the possibility of a good relationship right under my nose.She was half child, half woman, seething with all the health and hormones a teenager has to burn. Right. The distances between the studio apartment building, and other places I needed to go was pretty far. I was in good shape, but it was still quite a distance to the nearest grocery store. Especially with a couple of grocery bags to lug home.The idea of getting a car was scary as hell. I know most cons dream of driving places, but I didn’t. I knew that at almost fifty years old, I was too old to be think of any drastic changes. Those kinds of changes were the second greatest reasons ex-cons.