“I just feel bad that it came to this. I never meant for it to come to this. I know, on some level, that John deserved what he got, I mean I underst...and the code and I knew what I had to do, but still ... I mean, shit, he got banged up in the process, and I feel kind of shitty about that!” Melody and Jane both drew close, and we simply held each other in companionable silence for a few minutes.“Nate, if he hadn’t crashed, but had finished out of the money, would you feel this badly?” asked Jane;. Xerxes was a year older to all of them, but had spent a lot of time together because Cyrus, Xerxes and another guy, Darius’ parents were all close friends. ‘Come, let’s sit in the den.’ Priya got up, and they started walking out of her room. She turned to Cyrus and whispered, ‘Cy, I want to talk properly ok? You free tomorrow?’ ‘Ya, we’ll meet for lunch ya?’ As they settled into the den and got themselves drinks, Rahul and Ami walked in. Ami had brought a friend, Clare, who was visiting from. "Isn?tbeing a moody tired jerk like a synonym for nasty bitch?" Maybe?" said Ryan, almost laughing. "But it doesn?t have to be." It?s fine, and you know I?m used to it anyway," said Lawrence, pattingthe seat and touching his leg. "Come on, slide over and sit where youalways do."Where I always do?" Ryan asked, knowing exactly what he meant."Yeah," said Lawrence, patting it again."Oh sure," said Ryan, rolling his eyes and looking out the window as heslid across the bench seat near. I kissed her softly on top of the head."I love you, too, Carrie Walton," I answered.We slept that way until morning.When I awoke in the morning I had one hand on Carrie's knee, which was draped over my waist. My other arm was beneath her shoulder with my arm circling her waist — or at least I think it was.I'd lost feeling in the appendage at some point in the night and I didn't have ability — or the urge, really — to move it. I was pleasantly trapped.I kissed the top of Carrie's head to rouse.