I wonder if I will regret putting my life, warts and all, out there. Worst case scenario – everyone who reads about me might hate me for all my mist...akes. Of course I do not want that but it is what it is. These taboo subjects and experiences can be related to autism and most autistics and autism experts would not want to talk about them. At the end of the day, I have to take responsibility for my past mistakes and I do believe I have served enough time for my every crime. I find a lot of. Break a window with a baseball? Own up to it and make restitution. Fail a math test? Admit to not studying or paying attention in class. Whatever it was, you were supposed to step to the plate and accept the responsibility of your actions. So when Alexis said she was pregnant and that I was the father all I could do was marry her. Why didn't I expect the marriage to last? Well Lexy's first husband divorced her when he caught her sucking off one of his business partners. Her second husband. .. event ... happening ... thing! His poor stressed psyche was bouncing from pillar to post trying to absorb all that he’d learned so far, and he was so distracted at work that his boss finally called him into the office to ask why.“Something on your mind, Merlin? You don’t seem to be your usual astute and focused self lately.”The summons and the question didn’t come as any surprise because Merlin knew very well he was functioning at a sub-standard level. “Yeah, Jerry, I know and I’m really. I made a wrong turn, started back. The black truck waited at the end of the street, idling. Tinted windows. I reversed out, headed forward. The truck was only a few meters away now.The buildings crowded above me. I could see dusty curtains twitch behind apartment windows as I moved slowly through the city.I wanted desperately to slam the Jeep into a turn and race back toward the buffer zone at full speed. Get on a jet and fly away. Leave this all behind me. Find an island somewhere and.