Issy casually takes his hand and leads John back to the balcony where they stand together, silent, overwhelmed by the huge silvery white shining moon ...and the sound of the crashing waves and the very fact that their two bodies, so in need of each other, are finally close again. The moon, a very large silvery white orb hanging low in the sky, is close to full now and the tide is high. The ocean water shoots up the blowhole on the jutting rock outcrop in a wondrous hundred-foot high jet of white. After that there was a long wait, I think he spread some more sun oil on me or wiped me down or something but I was just left. The TV was turned off so I was in total blackness apart from my rear end in the fresh air. They started playing soft music inside my box and I think I fell asleep I don’t know how many hours I slept but suddenly the TV came back on and I could see my holes in full view. The camera panned back a bit so I could see more grass. I was quite a sight this naked bum middle of. She was taller than me and more solidly built.“She took a swig and then undid my shirt buttons and removed the shirt. She sat down on the chair, so her eyes were at the same level as my cock. She ran her hand over the bulge, which was pretty fucking enormous at this point, and said ‘My God’ or something, ‘you must be excited. Have you ever had a woman before?’ I shook my head. ‘Well, don’t worry, I’m a great teacher.’ She wasn’t bloody joking. She pulled my jeans down and off, and felt. I’ve been thinking of you as alive and still fighting. I ignored the ugly feelings that something was wrong. You weren’t responding to anything. I convinced myself you were spending your precious energy on those wonderful children, who matter more than me. I can only hope that is true, that your last days were spent surrounded by your children and family. I still think you were strong enough to beat the cancer. Losing the baby and the final expiration of your marriage were heavy enough hits..