Gloria was my best mate; there was no doubt about it. She wasalways there for me when I needed her and during the weeks we had shared ahouse together ...we had become accustomed to each others ways and littlefoibles. It was almost like being a married couple!An internal explosion went off in my head like a flash of light. Now Iknew why I wasn't able to build any long-term relationships with otherpeople; I was in love with Gavin/Gloria! But which one did I love? Was itthe boy or the girl; or both?. Then slowly opened the lid, my eyes nearly popped out of my head when. I saw inside, she had porn magazines, a video, a vibrator and some anal beads. I immediately picked up the vibrator ans turned it on, my cock was so hard and pulsing now. I put on the DVD and watched the porno, masturbating. This went on every day until she got home. She must have never noticed as nothing was ever said.A year later i had bought tickets to fly out to spain to visit my grandparents, they owned a villa and. While I havent quite managed hate just yet, I feel some satisfaction that my fear has at least turned into a soaring anger. I let it rage within me and my breathing speeds up. Curling my fists and squaring my shoulders, I resolve right now to return to my family as soon as possible. But how to do that? Think Selena. I know better that to hope I will find some magical, secret exit. If I ever want to leave this place Ill have to be pretty fucking smart. I have to find a weakness of his somehow,. I had a 7 hrs journey to complete and i thanked god for getting the seat somehow.I was too tired and after reading some magazines for a few minutes I went to sleep after some time I woke up.I saw the compartment was totally filled with the crowd and I somehow got up to go to the toilet. It was hard to move around answered I got stuck in the middle an elderly man told me to wait til the train reaches the next station so that I can reach the toilet one some ofthe people get down there. I was.