Anyway, that got me thinking. The next chance I had to be home alone, I decided I was going to try something. So a few days later in the school holida...ys, I got a day to myself. My Mum out at work, I walked round the corner to the shop and browsed the shelves for what I thought my make my dick hard when I poured it on my feet. I bought a jar of honey and a can of baked beans, and raced home to the bathroom to try out my new 'hobby.' It had to be the bathroom. I thought that there's nowhere else. " I left Dr. Jenkins's office thinking about trying lesbianism. Itseemed the only solution. First, I bought some tapes of Melissa Etheridge,the Indigo Girls, Janis Ian, and disappear fear from off of Billboard'sLesbian Adult Contemporary Chart to help get me in the right frame of mind. Then that night I went to a bar that catered to a lesbian crowd called"The Villa Sackville-West". I looked around at the woman there, some weregender dysphoric some were gender defiant and some were. Main kuch din ke liye apni saheli ke sath room lekar rahti thi aur hum dono log waha se job karne jate the.Hum log ko room malik bahut ghurta tha aur kabhi kabhi to mujhse raat me baaten karta tha wo mujhe bahut ghurta tha aur meri saheli ko jyada nahi ghurta tha aur main bhi uske room me rahti thi to mujhe bhi room malik se baat karni padti thi. Mujhe room malik hamesha raat ko mujhse baaten karta tha aur mujhse puchta tha ki aur sab kuch thik h na agar kuch chahiye to mujhe batana wo room. One night I felt something under the table. He was sitting next to me while our mothers were talking to each other. His hands touched my leg softly but insecurely. I looked at him and smiled.From then on, at every dinner, we sat next to each other. He started moving his hand higher up my thigh and eventually I started touching him too. My mother found out that we were flirting and ordered me to stop. That only made me want him even more. I restrained myself and followed her command.He did not.