You're free to leave anytime you want and you have just as much ‘control’ as I do.” Somehow, that was the most humiliating thing. Knowing that I... was freely giving myself to this man. It was that dirty desire to be used like a whore. These dark cravings. My dirty little secret. Then, he added, almost tenderly, “I respect your boundaries, J. We’ve talked plenty about this. You only have to say the word.” I nodded meekly, eyes still refusing to meet his. “But then again,” he added, his voice. After she'd gone, Mike turned to me and smiled. “She likes you,” he said, “you're in. Once Hazel returned, we sat and chatted for another half hour or so then Mike suggested I get into my car and follow them back to the rental, which as he'd said was just down the street from the bar and in less than two minutes we were parked up outside the cottage they'd rented and heading inside. Once we were inside, Hazel said she was going to get changed and disappeared into the bedroom. When, five. " I teased. "Geez, things are getting pretty bad when a birthday girl has to get her own drink!"I laughed as both guys scrambled to run and get my beer. Ted "won" and Al and I sat on the sofa. When Ted returned, I thanked him graciously as he sat in the chair across from us.Both guys looked terrific. Ted wore black straight leg jeans and a grey sports coat. Under the coat he had on a black shirt complimented by a silver bola tie. Our outfits matched so well, you'd have thought we'd planned it!I. I fling my friend down in frustration, pull up my leggings and head down stairs."Sorry I was up...you're not the postie?"Three men are stood in my porch."Good morning Tina is it?" this from a man I would think similar age to me. The other two look older late 50's one of them might be even 60s. "Natalie (the air kisser from the charity) gave us your address said you want some decorating done? "Definitely Irish lilt in the voice."Oh come in .I thought it was another two weeks ?" well we had a.