Know I'm a feminine male (the male term I use very loosely:) I really don't have to hide the fact and as before my recent visit certainly validates th...at. I showed up wearing cute white shorts with a very pretty lacy bra and cute panties underneath, topped off with a somewhat feminine blouse that did not really conceal my bra if you looked. After checking in with the receptionist I took a seat and waited to be called back to the Dr. My hair is only down to my shoulders and I still haven't. The fact that my mother was on her knees sucking and fondling Derrick’s cock certainly surprised me. But it did not offend me. I finally realized what was bothering me so much. I had ruined her moment to live her fantasy. I could not blame her for being furious with me. And Derrick may never model for her again.The next morning when my mother finally decided that I was worthy of speaking to her again. I apologized profusely. She let me go on for ten minutes until she told me to shut up.“Arthur,. And his reply “cool, Im on my way, be ready , I’l be there in about 20mins” I get naked, turn down the lights, I check and un lock the door, I sit on the chair in the corner, its about 1:30am. My apts are dead ass quite, I hear the rumble of bass and a car with a loud muffler idling up slow, my heart is really beating so fucking hard! I think to myself, I could still back out of this. I could lock the door and he will just leave. No, I knew I wanted it, I wanted to get my ass pounded by a big. And soon it was all the time. I was a full blown addict. My dealer knew it, too. They're sneaky bastards. They start you out slow. He adds a little extra. He gives a 'discount'. And once you're hooked ... then he knows he got you..."Jacob reached out and took her hand. It was shaking."I didn't have any money. I needed a high," she swallowed hard. "I said I'd do anything for him. I begged him to let me borrow some money 'cause I was getting paid at the end of the week. He said he'd hook me up if.