“Okay Chris, look at me,” he instructed, taking my attention from the camera and back to him. “For right now I want you to just suck me off, we�...��ll explore more later. But for now, you’re to just suck my cock.”“Yes sir,” I responded eagerly.“Good boy, begin,” he directed as he pressed record.The fact that it was recording me and my every naked move, sparked a yearning as I had never felt before. I didn’t just want to give him a blowjob, I wanted to savor him, make him orgasm as he had never had. My body was getting warm and I kept leaning on Balaram more and more as I was finding it difficult to stand. My anus was in the meantime fully lubricated and Balaram also knew that I was ready. He slowly started pushing his cock head into me. Surprisingly, I did not feel much pain and pushed back at him.After a few such pushing back and forth, I could suddenly feel myself full in my ass and realized that I have lost my virginity. Balaram was very considerate, asked me if I was Ok and when I. The sun was coming up but I got out of bed and walked to the bathroom and family room in just my bra, panties and thigh highs. It was thrilling and risky.As I said, I frequently wear panties under my clothes and later to bed without my wife knowing. One Friday when I arrived home, my wife suggested we drive to a restaurant about twenty minutes away. I changed from my business suit to blue jeans, keeping my panties on – black satin with lace. We enjoyed several cocktails and a nice dinner, then. ” I said very softly, my throat sore from screaming. “You are my child. I could not let the evil take you.” he said and hugged me, making the pain in my back flare again. Reaching the church a half hour later, we went into the chapel and mother and I greeted the rest of the parishioners as they came in. All through Father's two hour sermon on the evils of masturbation and giving our bodies and minds to evil, I sat there trying to keep the tears from my eyes. Finally he finished and we split.