By the time he was in his late thirties; bothaddictions had taken over his life and he had few friends oracquaintances. He gambled or he dressed.The g...ambling had ceased when he went to go to work for Tony Leonardo butMike's obsession with transvestism had not. He still had all of hisfeminine paraphernalia and dressed as often as he could. He kept hisbody trim and completely hairless and his nails were kept a littlelonger than most men, but they were very well manicured. He couldtransform from. Besides, I likelooking pretty. It's something I guess guys don't reallyunderstand. But I can. And I think its great." We headed out thedoor.At the beginning of Christmas break I received the results of myphysical. Mom had arranged for me to visit a university medicalcenter where they specialized in boys who wanted to become girls. The results were encouraging. I was still fertile, although mysperm count was very low. I had finished my growth, so nohormonal changes would further alter my bone. Ragged beggars huddled by the roadside. Poachers who survived on the flesh of the rabbits, birds and feral dogs they'd caught in their traps. Improvised cottages where people who'd never before known the sweat and toil of a life on the soil now had to adjust through necessity to a life of bare subsistence."The countryside is real weird," said Tony. "It must be like home to you. All these fields and shit. How d'you find anything to eat round here?" We'll find a way," said Eugenie, who wasn't. And I asked my mom once what those things were all about and she just said “Don't you worry about that, honey. That was all just silly mistakes and me getting the wrong idea about a bunch of stuff but we talked it over a long time ago and you know I love her”.But the point is there was a time through maybe a couple years when I used to think Cait's mom was a really bad person even though she was always nice when I was there but I just thought it was all fake, and it's not like mom ever said.