It washanging in her bathroom and she would help with my makeup.A found a purple brocade under-bust corset, black panty girdle, thighhigh stockings, a... lacy black bra, and a deep red sheath dress and and redheels. I snugged the corset up to a point that would please MistressAndrea and finished dressing. The dress hugged my frame and ended justabove my knees. Mistress came in and while doing my makeup told me wewere going to a club she k new of to chill out and dance a bit and seewhat develops.Ok. The guys knew her and they said it wasn't her but I couldn't shake the idea that they were only saying it to put me at ease. In fact at one shift change, when I was bringing up the tea I heard Derek ask Nobby and Tom if they thought it was Jean. They told him they couldn't be sure. She was just too far away, and wasn't facing us for long enough for a positive I.D. I pretended I hadn't heard.They left mid afternoon on Sunday. The rest of our company was relieved at 16.00hrs. We would have to. “How big is our cargo hold?”We have three cargo holds, I learn. The forward hold, the smallest, mostly used for storing rope and hawsers, wire cable slings and pennants, huge shackles, large pelican hooks, carpenter stoppers, blocks and tackle, and other assorted deck gear.The main cargo hold is amidships, approximately equal in size to the engine room. Aft of the engine room, is the after hold, about half the size of the main hold because it’s divided. Half either side of the moon pool. She and Michelle would argue about me almost nightly I was told. Finally Michelle was given an ultimatum, choose to live at home with the family or choose to marry me and lose her family. I lost. To this day though, I am not really sure how much of what I was being told by Michelle was true or not. More later on that. I was starting to believe that I was some sort of monster. I blamed myself for losing my family and now I was losing the only people I had ever really cared for. Even the pastor.