..” I started to break up. She noticed and realized she’d opened a very fresh wound.“I’m sorry, Davey. I am,” said Stacey. “I didn’t mea...n to hurt...”“No, no, it’s all right, and you’re probably right. But, she is not here and I am alone and I need my daughter and she isn’t there for me. I need her bad, Stacey, and she isn’t there for me in that special way that I need her. I know that maybe doesn’t mean anything to anybody but me, but it is what it is. I need to be first in her heart. Okay,. .. Ta tante? Elle ne sait rien! Elle risque d'?tresurprise si elle voit un gar?on en talons aiguilles chez elle!" Oui, mais il suffirait de lui faire croire que Florian est unefille!"J'?tais abasourdi par cette conversation. Avais je bien compris?Lucie proposait que je passe tout l'?t? d?guis? en fille? Je n'euspas le temps de protester. Maman s'exclama:"Tr?s bonne id?e! D?s qu'on aura un moment, on ira faire un peu deshopping pour habiller ma nouvelle fille pour l'?t?!"Je commen?ai ?. I can barely make any sense out of everything that has happened.The Beginning The clock moves. It’s 4:30 on Friday afternoon, so close to the end of the workday, this workday that has become painfully boring. All I want to do is escape this office, run screaming into the street, just so I don’t have to spend one more moment sitting at this desk, just so I don’t have to answer one more phone call, just to escape my life, dull and meaningless. I feel a headache building behind my eyes. . Unfortunately the website that is their version of what Craigslist used to be is completely useless. You can spend months writing to women and making ads, and come up with nothing but fake robots or men posing as women because they have nothing better to do.I did come across a swingers website that seemed a little more promising. It was free for women, but cost money for couples, and was even more expensive for men. I decided to take my chances and made a membership. I wrote to a hundred.