"I have felt it." Have you called it then?" Ask your wizards," I laughed."I have done so, and they say you have not." They do not lie," I nodded at Th...roat, the one I took to be the senior of them. "but one doesn't have to lie to fail to speak truly." What will you do?" I will wait for the coming winter," I answered, looking at the sky."And if you are dead when it gets here?" he asked."I cannot say, for Gaen will decide it, not me, but I would suspect that many Tibu would join me, were that the. Obviously, when I get out of here, the nightmare will be over. There'sno way I've turned gay. It's just I have no options. I'm not worriedabout the changes. When I get out, I'll stop taking the pills. Goeswithout saying. But one thing about being in prison, you need all thedrugs you can get to get you through the day. So I take these pills,the 'girly pills' as they call them. And it doesn't seem that bad. Ofcourse, there are side effects. I've lost quite a lot of weight. Andthat which I have,. ” His eyebrow rose and I felt the need to explain. “Well, it can be an excuse for not doing anything. Just staying in bed all day, listen to the sound of the rain, snuggling up with a cuppa and a good book.”“Not with a boyfriend?” he teased me and I smiled a crooked smile. “They weren't into that kind of thing.” I stretched and reached for my can of cider, took a sip. The impulse to say some more, explain more was there but I fought it down.He just looked at me. His piercing blue eyes fixed on. . a fling. I like him. He likes me.”“All right.”“Clint, you don’t need me to tell you how important you are in my life.”He shrugged, Mr. Conversation.I tried a different tact, “Look if you come to Kansas City — I want you to come to Kansas City — I’m all yours. I’ll drop everything to be with you. I mean ... well, it depends on work, but other than that...”He nodded. Mr. Noncommittal. His silence was like a boulder.I bit back a sharp retort. This was how breakups occurred. Permanent damage. I.