Apart from being married I didn't know how Richard felt about me." Well you know now. If I had realised it was you he was in love with I would have sa...id a lot more." Even so, would it have made a difference? Charles was not a bad man, by most standards he was a perfect husband and would have continued to be so if he hadn't realized that Charlie wasn't his daughter." And Richard?" Ashley raised her eyebrows asking that question."Richard is the husband my heart would have chosen. He is my lover,. As a result, his next small step towards the group simply initiatedhis irrevocable journey down the path of becoming who he'd be for theremainder of his life.His physical changes rapidly accelerated as he neared the chosengroup. Even the fear I'd once seen in his eyes had now completelyvanished. His mind, as well as his body, had been changed. He'dnever really forget who he'd once been, but he'd never be able to acton that information in any way. For all intents and purposes, hewould fit in. Simms?s um, friend has requested that Jody have her hairdone.? Jody was overcome with happiness, despite the horrible weltsand weals left by the vicious scourges of the dog whip. ?Really?Jillian said that?? Jody?s hair was a rat?s nest after a week and a half inthat goddamned basement. She?d been getting her hair set and styled every three weekssince puberty, even during the sixties, when everyone else seemed to be gettingit ironed. Jody breathed exhilaration. Perhaps Jillian wasn?t so. " He reassured me.I took a couple whiffs for good measure and could feel it working. I wasn't as nervous and didn't feel sick. I quickly took off my clothes but covered up my penis. Mr. Lance just chuckled and told me to bend over the table. He said he was going to explain every step he was doing to me and not to be nervous."Ok, go ahead and grip your buttocks apart. Now I'm pouring the liquid into a different container, then I'm going to dip my index finger in the liquid and then into you."I.