Every time she did it I would watch her and think she is crazy. After a while Shelly said she was tired so she went and fell asleep on their couch. th...e rest of us sat around the fire pit and talked. Ron asked me how we were doing. He said that she was very quite and looked like she wasnt having fun! I told him that we had our normal disagreement about the whole sex thing. For the last 2 months she has not wanted to have sex and she keeps telling me that she is having women issues and is seing a. You need to give up that crap you smoke. It's destroying you."She does not have to say it. I already know I'm pathetic, and that I smoke too much weed. And I wonder if that's the reason — my obsession with Milly some kind of cannabis-induced psychosis. There and then, I vow to give it up. And so I try. But without its mind-numbing consolation, every day becomes a battle to control my thoughts. It becomes a war I wage against that rebellious part of myself that has placed Milly on her pedestal. . but I still jack off, just nowhere near as often." Oh?! Why ... and who are you thinking about?"Heh ... just what I feared. I wriggled out from under the Chevy and looked straight in her eyes..."I think about you."She smiled. "That's good ... but I wasn't thinking about you, not a whole lot, anyway." Good. Then you weren't comparing me to the banana."Now she laughed."No ... I was mainly thinking it was too big for my butthole, and wishing it was you, instead ... or that I'd found a smaller. With a week to spare on the deadline, the people of Clay County agreed to join us if we came through right away with the S1s and beat the GSA when they tried to land. The big deal for us to have their militia to combine with our Haven Army was that they had six 12-pounder cannon that we could use against the boats carrying the GSA troops.As usual with the arrogance and stupidity of the GSA general staff, they had assumed that nobody in Clay County would object to them just showing up and.