That road needed some work if dad was going to bring a crew in there. But he would decide that after cruising the area first. Dad had no problems driv...ing this road in his truck to the log loading area but did use the four-wheel drive once we started on this road. It was not kept up because it was a spur road but it was well made. Dad had built it twenty years ago and hauled logs out on it himself.Once at loading area #6 dad parked and we got out. We took out our field glasses and scanned the. The problem wasn?t that she couldn't get close to people but that she hadsuch a need for love that she felt her own self could get swept away inthe rush of that need.She knew she had abandonment issues, how could she not, having been givenup for adoption as an infant. She hardly needed a shrink to tell herthat. Like duh-uh, you really think so, Dr. Gertzoff? Geez. It neverwould have occurred to me. You?re a genius. Please. The only thingtherapy had taught her was that it wasn't true that you. When he heard something else. Something soft and wet. The noise was quiet. However it was still audible enough. He reached the end of the room where he peered from left into the sea and right where a glimpse of silver flashed. Suddenly the man couldn't breath. His adrenaline ran as his gasped for air clutching at his bleeding throat. He went to his knees seeing his bulky crew member on the deck next to him with her own throat slashed. The life had just left her eyes as his head pounded and his. Not to embarrassyou but hopefully to make you feel better about it. I probably wouldn'tsay anything if it weren't that I understand better than you think."With that John pushed his chair out and pulled up his pants leg watchingPaul as he did so. As it rose above his socks Paul saw the sheen from thenylon his dad had on. His eyes grew wide and mouth opened. "So see Paul.I truly do understand because I do the same thing and have for a longtime. And after seeing you I thought maybe you would feel.