I am just so insecure about how to express my feelings. I realize I don’t want to go back to being Eric. I feel free and content the way I am right ...now, but will it be fair to you?”She simply kissed me and all questions melted away. There was just us and nothing else mattered. Our bodies now all tangled up and there was no place for words, I simply listened to her breath and her heartbeat, felt her warm body and discovered that love had no rules and no boundaries.This was the answer, there was. The living room was huge with a high oak-beamed ceiling and a large stone fireplace, which Ralph soon had filled with a huge roaring fire. The cabin wasn't so isolated as to not have electricity, but the men had trouble getting the hot water heater going, partly because it was old and cranky and partly because both of them were more than a little drunk by that time.Cindy hadn't seen the bedrooms yet, but she had the feeling that they would be warm and homey, with great big thick double beds and. I decided I’d had enough sun and went up to my room for a nap.I woke up from a dream where I’d been on the brink of a wonderful orgasm. It was much later than I thought - already dark outside. I reached my hands between my thighs to find that I was quite wet. I could have just finished things off with my fingers but I decided I wanted something more fulfilling.I had my black vibrator, about 9” long with a real cock shape, in my hand when I heard voices. Not loud, but not happy voices either. I. I cursed myself for being such a weakling. I cried myself to sleep that night.A change of tactic was needed. I was with friends dawdling home when Justin passed me. Justin said ‘Hi’ as I looked at him. My friends teased me and said they would tell Scott. After five minutes I left my friends and tried to catch up with Justin. Luckily for me I caught him at the end of our road. I just came out with it. “Is that offer still on” I asked. Justin didn’t respond straight away so I felt compelled to.