It is difficult and occasionally frustrating. Especially for one such as I who had made love to men maybe more than a dozen times every day. It was no...t because I dislike such activity. Indeed, like Ketaba, it occasionally gave me feelings of great usefulness to the poor men who felt the need to buy a prostitute's services and, I'm afraid, it was sometimes very pleasant. Unlike your friend Binta, men do not repulse me at all. I became a novice from a wish to worship and serve, and not to escape. I'd figured that was because this Carol had gotten to know Julia much better by now; had seen me and Julia in a successful, loving relationship for three months; and had been impressed by the many good changes to my character that Julia had pushed me into developing. Last, and I'm sure of considerable effect, Carol had seen that I was extremely popular with the girls at school. Julia had convinced me that it had a powerful psychological effect on other girls. When it comes to something as basic. The cold of the lake was already a distant memory, now her body was burning up, sweat dripping her her pores to mingle with her lover’s fluids. She had felt so clean after her bath, so refreshed, and now she was being sullied on the ground. There was something exciting about that, the idea making some long repressed desire surface in the back of her mind. She wanted to be covered in mud and sweat, drool and come, filthy in a very literal sense.Sleethe pulled out of her mouth and let her take a. I started to feel different, freer and ... more slutty " so?" I said this point to make her understand that I wanted it to continue“I had found serenity and happiness thanks to a stranger who understood everything about me without even looking at me. I felt understood and therefore happy! And now I'm here in front of her to show her my submission, the acceptance of my role, and this in complete freedom. Freedom that I have gained thanks to her "I took my head in my hands and pulled her face up.