These emotions and hormones are so different from what I'm used to that I just can't stand it. I want my old life back. I want to be who I used to be ...so I can hold you and Chrissy in my arms. Please allow me to do this for the sake of our daughter's happiness." I know I can't stop you. I don't want to stop you. I just want to make sure that you're okay. I accept you as who you are and not the body that appears on the outside. Can't you accept that fact too?'"I can never accept this body. It is. I think nancy, my wife had told me that she had more food in the ice box for me than I needed but I do not know why I wanted to order something from outside. I wanted to be bad but not as bad to order pizza and so I called the chinese food place in the neighborhood shopping area and ordered chinese rice with all the junk in it and they said it will be delivered in 40 minutes or free. I hung the phone and decided to walk to the bathroom for peeing and coming back I got caught to my own looks in. I must have been tied up with John Stickner at the time. He got me through that mess with the Melrose account this week. I owe him big time for that," she said with a voice that seemed to have a hidden meaning in it, one which Early couldn't fathom. "Honey, after I was able to turn that disaster around, it looks like I'm going to get that partnership! Mr. Jenson practically promised it to me!" Susan crowed. "Isn't that grand?" Sure is honey, we will have to celebrate! I'm sorry I wasn't there. "Probably. Although I don't exactly qualify for the big bucks. An undergraduate degree, these days, is the new high school diploma." Yeah, I know what you mean. I'm a lucky girl. I've got a free ride, and a rich Daddy." What are you going to do?" I'm going on the tour. Not the LPGA -- the Futures Tour." Wow. That's a hard road, isn't it? I mean, I've heard the purses on the Futures Tour aren't much." You've heard right. Even if you win a tournament, it's like, $10 or $12 thousand. The purses --.