Imoved silently through the room, using my phone as aflashlight. I opened the door and got out withoutmaking a sound. The Ryokan was quiet and no one ...aroundmoving, so I had to keep quiet as I moved here aswell.I slipped on my sandals and made my way outside. Irounded the building to the back area. It must havebeen around 11 now, and the owners place was all quietas well. Good.I went up to the gate where Riki opened it earlier andlet myself in. Using my phone still to guide myself, Imade my way. “Okay, but couldn’t you find a better way to do it?” she asked.“I’ll think about it,” he said.“Are you sure you don’t want me to take you to the group meeting at the church?” Lucy asked changing the subject with ease.“No maybe I’ll go when I get my wheels,” John replied.“So what are you going to buy. You know, I could co-sign for a loan until your settlement check come,” Lucy volunteered yet again.“The first social security payment hit the bank the beginning of the week. According to them I’m. Friday night you and Italked about the way we've been feeling different, still loving eachother but not wanting sex anymore, and I think the same kind of thingis happening to Anne and the others here, in reverse. Something likeit is probably happening to everybody everywhere, really. If Dave'sbrain didn't change along with his body, he'd probably be as freakedout at the idea of sex with a marsupial woman as Anne was at the ideaof sex with him... Yeah. She told me more today about that. I was sitting on the chair sidways so that it would push against my vagina. the more i write in these diaries, the more you will learn about that incounter, and the more you will learn about how i have been scared. I'm not gunna say exactly what had happened, but my dads friends son who was staying with us, who was 13 at the time, had raped me after walking in and seeing the computer screen.I have been raped 3 times by him. once at 11, 14, and 15. yes 15, as in he had raped me again a few.