Perhaps because we remained friends who fucked and didn't take our relationship seriously, being around each other never bothered us. We became exclus...ive companions. While sharing our life, our differences created diverse perspectives making whatever we did interesting and broadened.My oldest friend Josh helped me realize Amy and I had a bond deeper than we thought. Since he lived in the city, we tried to have an evening together at least once a month. During my summer stupor he made more. ‘We have to eat before work, guys. But nothing in here looks good.’ She let the door fall closed and went into the living room, Rex still laying on the floor and Tugger curled up in the papasan chair. Smiling, she called Rex to her and clipped his leash on, glancing at the clock. ‘We’ll run to the store before work, and get some things.’ Rex smiled a wolfish smile back at her, as much as any dog could, and she went back out the door, leaving a sleeping Tugger to guard the house. ***** ‘C’mon. I saw girls, naked ... with each other, doing things to each other. All of which seemed so ... loving. I removed my pajamas and began rubbing myself. My feelings for Rebecca became stronger. I imagined doing those things with her, I came so hard, and I thought for sure someone would hear me. I have kept the magazine hid, all this time.”“Jill, have you ever told Rebecca how you feel?”Jill grabbed his arm and looked at him. “No dad, I just couldn’t. I felt she would never forgive me and I would. I tried to hide my tears behind a smile. Although I had grown accustomed to the empty spot in the bed, I assumed the negligence would end as soon as David was finished developing his product. It had hit me in this moment that it would be months, maybe years before he would be in a position to oversee his product from a distance and be a husband again. I would be alone for a very long time. I tried satisfying myself with porn during David’s absence, but it never did enough for me. Not my.