" I was sexual with all these women and I was a good lover, but I always had a yen for men. More than once I had to use the fantasy of sex with a man ...to get off with my female lovers.I started exploring my homosexuality when I was thirty-five. I would go to my favorite adult theater, "The Paradise," to watch gay porn and have sex. The Paradise is two theaters in one; a straight theater and a gay theater. Most of the patrons start in the straight theater, but within minutes they migrate to the. I took the leap of faith and said yes that I am ready for anything. She said she and her boyfriend will pick me up the next day and we can do it. I was on cloud nine remembering all the nights I fantasied fucking her like a dog. Now it’s coming to reality. There was also another guy with her. So I was also feeling awkward how I would be fucking her in-front of a guy I don’t know. All said and done the day finally arrived, they picked me up and we were driving on an isolated road. I was silent. Helva’s almost panicked voice rang throughout. Inkie woke slowly, barely aware for some extended time. She couldn’t see or hear, and she was breathing through a SCUBA-like full-face mask. Her wrists were fastened together as were her legs at the ankles. After a while, she came to understand that she was submerged, probably in water. Helva! Inkie asked her friend and lover. Helva told her. That last was a plaintive wail. Inkie responded. Helva continued. If she hadn’t been so concerned,. U sit down as ill put the plate infront of u. It looks great..ull say... Taste it babe...it will match its appearence just like u do the knife cuts like thru butter while u pinch the roll down to ur plate. As u put it in ur mouth ull close ur eyes. The lovely taste of bacon,egg plant,fetta and fresh pesto almost make u moan.. Instead a sweet mhmhmhmm cums out. Ill look at u enjoying all this. In the background ull hear the sweet sound of sade...its the sweetest taboo...matches me. Its bad that.