I begged her not to, but she told me everything would be fine. She said, "Roger thinks the world of you, are you being a little jealous?"No way was I ...jealous of the creep, but I couldn't explain to her, how I thought her life would be a living hell. I talked to my dad about it and he said, "It is her life and if she feels that Roger is the one she wants to share it with, you don't have to give her your blessing, but you must respect them."It took six months, of living with Roger, to convince me. "He looked sympathetically at Pernice and Jorgarn for a moment."I apologize for suggesting on numerous occasions that you should stay behind," he said. "Now that I command a sizable group, I find it an unpalatable thought. You were right when you told me I would one day understand your need to be with your men. I'm sorry I doubted that statement."Jorgarn and Pernice waved off his apologies but Torbert looked thoughtful."I wish I could be there," Torbert said."So be there," Belad stated. "I am. ‘Of course I am, you little bitch. And so are you — so are you !’ Debra was right, I couldn’t deny it. My mind was becoming even more perverted, so I did something the old me would have thought unthinkable. I installed hidden cameras in both kid’s rooms and began spying on them, recording their activities. If they had someone over, I turned the camera on. Most times, it was pretty routine stuff, but after a month, I had some interesting stuff. I transferred it to DVD and after showering and. I would take what I could get and enjoy it.It was a wonderful month. Just wonderful. And it flew by. My promise to play a Bösendorfer, a wonderful piano, for Artie at Ocean Music changed my life. That night I didn’t play for Jadok or Artie or the rest of the curious. I played for Michael. Artie called him my man and it gave me goosebumps. I hardly remember the interview for TV or my conversation with anyone else. Just Michael. The rest didn’t matter. Later that night, when he made love to me.