"So by the time I got up Jade had laid out a "Julianne" outfit on my chair."It was really good to have met your Mum and Trudy but now I want to meetJu...lianne," Jade said.So Mum had been talking. I no longer needed to try to hide the fact thatI had been crossdressing for the last term. I could revert back to beingthe daughter and sister I was meant to be.Jade said, "Our coven is incomplete. We need a third princess in thecovenand, I want to meet Julianne, your mum's first gothic princess, so. They didn’t have any sofa, nor an extra mattress. I did not think of staying in a hotel because…… Come on, you all know why.So, we decided that Shruti sleeps in her bed, as usual, and me and Ankita will share her bed. It was her idea, and I loved it. We switched off the lights and lied down on the bed. I spooned her (we were properly dressed, and I did not have any intention to share my bed…..See the irony? We are already on the same bed. ????.).After a while, we all drifted to sleep. Somewhere. I shifted in my chair, trying to focus on Jay's story. My thoughts quickly trailed back upstairs as the water seemed to tap a quicker rhythm on the floor of the shower. I wanted to be there, kneeling under her, catching the runoff with my tongue while watching her face contort and her body quiver.A few minutes later the shower stopped running and I could hear the drain gurgling. The hair dryer came on a moment later. I could see Corey in my head, wearing nothing but a towel, lazily blow drying. And, knowing that I had nothing else to do, I thought I’d start the day on a high note. I wiggled down the length of the bed so I was sat on the edge, directly opposite the mirror. “Hello, pretty,” I said to myself.You have to love yourself. I learned that early on. If you don’t love yourself, you can’t expect anyone else to love you. That’s not to say I think I’m perfect. Far from it. I’m really critical of my appearance; but working in theatre requires confidence, and you have to work with.