We made our farewells and headed back. The trip back only took one hour. It was down hill all the way. We arrived at the lodge at 1800. We cleaned up ...and went to dinner. They had a clam chowder and salad special. Sushi and I had that. Sally had a piece of cod.After dinner Joe organized two tables and we played hearts until 2200. When the games broke up, we sat around and talked about the day's activities. I let everyone know tomorrow would be a free day. We would all meet for dinner at 1900.. Upon entering the room, we soon started kissing, and when I realized, we were already in bed. I was wearing a casual blouse and jeans. I don’t know why, but his smell always drove me crazy. He took off my shirt while he kissed my mouth. I was wearing a black bra and panties. Soon I took off his shirt, and I could see his sexy body.I stopped for a moment and told him that there wouldn’t be any penetration. What we did was risky because I was not on birth control. My husband had a vasectomy after. "But from the time puberty hit, I've had fantasies of being a girl."She began to nod her head, not so much in understanding or acceptance asresignation to what she'd already realized. I continued."I was popular and dated a lot, but it didn't keep me from dreaming aboutbeing a girl, and whenever I had the chance I tried on my mom's bra andpanties or her garter belt and hose. When I watched porn, I put myselfin the girl's place, wearing beautiful lingerie, happily sucking cock andbeing fucked,. I felt like i was awakening from a dream, or waking up afteran operation. "god my head hurt" hazy memories and fuzzy visuals. i achedeverywhere. Was something wrong with me? had I been in an accident? Ipushed myself up in the bed slightly, not really sure what part of mybody hurt the most. My eyes still coming into complete focus, my mindracing to catch up with the facts that surrounded me. For the first timein a long time I was scared, not of something, but of the unknown. Wherewas I ? think,.