I turned to close the window and I saw that a guy was watching me through his room in the next building. The space between buildings was just about 10...-12 feet, so he did enjoyed the view clearly. I was not shocked or got angry, I smiled. But as I looked at that guy, he hid behind the wall. I went to the window in my bra and said, “Hey, come out.” “Hey! I’m not angry, and not going complain to anyone about you spying on me,” I said laughing. He came in the view. He was around seventeen year old,. Then hubby joined me, pulled me onto his lap and Rob was out of the pool camera in hand taking a photo of us. It was a funny sight as he had this giant erection pointing at us. Hubby whispered into my ear "I think that he needs help to get rid of that, give him a blow job if you feel like it" - If I Feel like it!!! - I was so wet with anticipation. Rob sat on the edge of the pool erection pointing skyward, I swam over and took him in my mouth - he was as hard as a rock.At that moment the skies. Let me out. Eating dinner with my parents, andthey ask, how have you been? Let me out. Brewing a pot of coffee in themorning before work, Let me out. It's still there, that unending refrain.Sometimes it's louder. Sometimes it's barely audible unless I listen veryhard, in a quiet room, but it never stops. Let me out, let me out, let meout.I finger the handle of my knife as I slice the crusts off her littlesandwich (PB&J, her favorite!) before I bring it down. She hates crusts. Ithink about just. Again, she had woken up with a man she did not love, not knowing, not remembering what had happened. She took a deep breath."I'm not mad at you, but we took several steps at once yesterday. I need to sort out how I feel about what obviously happened." I didn't plan for this to happen either. Please, believe me. But you gave me the greatest gift last night. Whatever you feel, Josie, please know that from my side it was love. I've loved you since that first meeting when you allowed me to follow.