She will be my soulmate, the love of my life. The one that I am going to spending the rest of my life with. This belief in my fate, helps when letting... myself off the hook when I am unlucky in love.In the past, I have been so very unlucky in love. This has been due to shyness that I have in approaching the opposite sex. I lack a lot of confidence in myself. This is due to events in my younger years that took their toll. But it doesn’t mean that I haven’t kissed a girl or even French kissed her.. .. si, si, I know.”She walked to the window, “see, I am unhurt,” she extended her middle finger in the universal sign of contempt, “and fuck you too asshole.” “Okay,” she leaned against the wall and eyed Danielle, “si, si, I know her, the fat English woman,” her eyes narrowed, “no, no that is good... because we have no schoolgirl clothes in the van.... go back to the apartment and get it for me, it is in a black bag beside my white polka dot dress... don’t forget the hat and the whip... she. She said “about yesterday” I interrupted with, “I want to apologize, I should have been more careful whaler my hands go, and it wont happen again”. With that being said she replied “no harm no foul, we are away from home for extended periods of time, sometimes for several months at a time, and I know the folks here that have affairs while away, you are not one of them, and neither am I”. “So with that being said, I believe I know what you do to relieve the tension, and I believe it is the. She hadn't felt like that in a very long time, and she enjoyed the way it made her feel almost young again!Still, she didn't act on the thought, but the thought itself didn't go away. If anything, it slowly, but surely, increased over time! Of course, she keep such thoughts to herself. How would her daughter think of her, she wondered, if she fucked some other man besides her father? Would she see her as a 'whore', a 'slut?' Cindy had never cheated on her husband, though she had often wondered.