She then started applying some makeup on my face and put the matching lipstick as m nails to my lips. She then got up went to her shoe rack and produc...ed a black color, four inch heel sandals and kept them near me. She then went to her closet and brought me a pair of black stockings and told me to wear them.I removed my red heels and started wearing the stockings. She instructed me to how to wear them and when I was done she went to her closet and brought a white colored low neck t-shirt and a. But suppose we didn’t. Even so, what we have and who we are doesn’t simply end.” “So, you believe in an afterlife?” “In some form, yes,” she replied. “But, at the funeral, you said the ex hadn’t thought beyond his own existence.” “That was him,” she said. “Not me.” “See, the problem is there are all those rules and rituals. I’m not sure what effect that will have on us.” She took my face in her soft hands and looked into my eyes. “Does it seem like I get wrapped up and rules and rituals?” “Not. Returning there was like visiting a grave. They had kept payments on her rent so she would lose nothing, and she had no family and the friends she had were not very committal, so her absence was not exactly noticed. She sat on her bed for what seemed like an eternity, the experiences of her recent past feeling like and extremely vivid dream, images of violent forced sex and afternoons spent with her doctor laying in bed talking flashing into her mind. She looked around her room, at her. . I mean, they'd tease me something awful, don't you see? I just don't think I want to try..." Honey, I really want you to try at least once. Come on, you always say you'll try anything once! I even got you part of your uniform you would need, if you accept. Won't you just try?"Jeremy looked down with his typical shyness, unable to really argue strongly with his single mother. He could never get truly angry with her; not considering how much she had done for him. He sure as heck didn't want to.