But I think I'm going to have to speak to him about this. This could be bad for the boys and very dangerous for me.I took a shower after the boys left.... It wasn't quite nine o'clock by the time I finished and got ready for bed. I sat on the side of my bed and looked at the new cell phone on my nightstand. I could try calling Rob now. I don't have to worry about the cost of a long distance phone call. I want to. I'd love to hear his voice.But beyond telling him I love him, what would I say? I. For those on the outside, many of them find it hard to believe that we’re not spending the entire day drooling over the young pussy. Guys like that in our profession don’t last for long. I’m personally responsible for the removal of three of those lecherous bastards.Let me give you an example of something like reality: There is a movie called Mr. Holland’s Opus. All together, a pretty average movie with a predictable plot line and obvious ending. Watching the movie, you can tell whoever wrote. Gideon always wanted another of those amazing pills that she had given him the first night that they met, but Lucy said they were very scarce and the peddlar that she had bought them from had not been around for quite sometime.But it was not only the items that Lucy brought to them, it was her mere presence that brightened up her dark days in that cave. On occasions she would pop by on the long summer nights and chat with them, sharing her home brewed punch and strange cigarettes that made them. Now that Jordan was staying we didn't even have that, which meant that we hadn't done anything at all together for months. I assumed that we could go some where else now that we were off school for a few weeks, maybe go swimming or to the beach. Anywhere to get away from Jordan for a few hours. But no, he wasn't pleased about my suggestion that we leave Jordan and go anywhere else, it seemed that Derek would rather spend time with his brother than with his best friend and I was deeply hurt by.