I’m not supposed to remember it. When I flip that switch I leave and let someone else use my body, like letting someone borrow your car, or stay at ...your flat. I don’t need to know what’s happening as long as nothing gets broken. The toothbrush clattered into the sink as it finally slipped from my fingers, the water washing away the last of my blood and toothpaste.The top of the mouthwash clicked loose as the safety seal broke away under my fingers. The wash tasted like mint fire, the acid. We all piled into Steve's Land Cruiser and headed off for the lake, which was about a three hour drive. I sat in the front with Steve and Darcy and Jason were in the back. Darcy would not make eye contact with me the whole time before we left. I was beginning to get in the back of the land cruise when Darcy said,"Chris why don't you sit in the front, for now, and we will change positions on the stops on the way up there to the lake."I obliged and climbed into the front seat after watching her. I’d loved her.I’d taken in some overnight kit for her: pajamas and panties, wash kit, hairbrush, that kind of thing, and I told the nurse that I’d left them in her room. I said that I’d be back the next afternoon, and to call me if there was anything she needed.I bumped into Deputy Sherrins on my way out to the truck.“Hi, Mr Palmer.”“You still on duty, Deputy?”“No, I’m done for the day, but I hoped I might perhaps catch you. Got a minute?”“Sure! How can I help?”“I need a quiet word.”We went. I want her to take her time. she said i am bit crazy but i insist that she do it for me. so i left. i went out with my friend and about 9:30. my wife told me that they had fucked. i told her i will be home shortly and told her not to wash herself off. when i came back. Mark has left. i ask her why did he leave. she said he was scared of u finding out and kept asking if i suspect anything. i ask her if she lied about fucking. she said no. she really did it as i wanted. I smile and kiss her and.