.. well; it all seemed so phony now.Sarah looked up at me, “Bass can I explain?”I looked at her. I felt empty, defeated; it was like all the life ...was drained out of me, “Sarah there’s nothing to explain. I just want to go to sleep.”My headache didn’t seem quite so bad, but I knew the symptoms, and I knew I dare not take anything until I was more certain. I told her, “I’m staying here till a few days after the funeral. I’ll sleep down here, but after that I’m moving to mom and dads. I’ll come. Pritam gently placed his hand on her hand and squeezed it softly. Arpita turned to look back at her husband and then tried to manufacture a smile. But the tension was clearly visible on her face. She looked both tensed as well as anxious.“It’s OK. You don’t have to do it” said Pritam, in a caring tone.Arpita nodded her head thoughtfully and then held back his hand tightly. “Don’t worry, I am fine. It’s just that I am a bit anxious”, and then she slid towards her husband and placed her head on. " You meant to be cruel," I said, coldly. "You think it's the best way to be kind to me. Like I'm a pet you put down." Don't be ridiculous." I'm right. You're just here to make a point about how miserable we'd be." You're making it sound more twisted than it is." We are twisted!" I balled my fists. "But we were happy! I know it was only a few days and a few letters, but we were both so, so happy, Gabe."Even now, when everything was going to crap, his features lifted when I said his name."Esme's. I arrived a little after 7, paid my fee and went to the Ladies room to piss and lube up. Then I went into the auditorium. It is cavernous inside the Oregon. Some people were playing with each other on the couches.It wasn't very crowded which was kinda disappointing but I figured it was still early yet. I set up at the massage table in the front, before I could shuck my jeans there was a cloud of men waiting for me, oh so patiently. I climbed up on the table spread my legs and started sucking on.