. you know, to keep me out of my old friends' reach ... But he also cut off my allowance to send me just the bare minimum! I can barely pay the rent a...nd buy food with what he sends me ... I guess he is punishing me or was trying to teach me how to be 'responsible' with my money.But one of my new friends in college had begun to work as a dancer - exotic dancer - to buy her dope. In the beginning I thought she was just a whore. I mean, come on! Top less dancing? Giving lap dances?But I could see. I could sense her internal struggle. Women like this always fought their feelings at first; they were shocked that a professional woman like they considered themselves could feel such a strong sexual stirring for another woman. After they would tell themselves, they?re not a lesbian, no far from it. That?s why it?s so much more fun when I finally break them.Absentmindedly, I began rubbing my right shoe (sensible black flat?s, you no the kind all of us stewardesses wear), up and down my. She stopped in front and a valet came over and asked her if she needed her car parked. She said oh yes thank you and stepped out of her car.Another Valet took her right to the front door ahead of the waiting line. She was escorted right inside the door by this valet person and she wondered why she is being giving this special treatment.I guess the Valet saw the puzzled look on her face and told her that when you use the valet service, you don’t have to wait in line. Debbie thought oh that is so. I can’t hear it start, but I know the truck has started from the puff of exhaust and water vapor drifting into the cold sub-zero morning air from the exhaust pipes. The backup lights come on and I know you are really leaving. The high pitched sound of the snow squeaking under the weight of the truck tires, compressing the cold molecules together makes me sad and feel lonely.Now all I can do is wait, wait for your e mail telling me that you have made it safely to work. I don’t want to hear the.