Or, rather, she gave up when the other woman refused to take her hand away. It didn't really look like Deirdre had applied much pressure. "What's goin...g on?" I asked, approaching the two of them. Lily looked down, avoiding my gaze. Deirdre whipped her head around and I expected her to command me to be silent. While a few of her faces wore stern expressions, though, most looked at me softly. Maybe even with pity. "Your friend here was instructed to determine whether you were spying on our court. ‘Well that should help it along.’ ‘Heifer.’ ‘Ho.’ We trade joking insults as we make our way back to the hostel, Joanna and Zanye in front with Zora glued to her phone behind us. The night is quiet and cold, moisture from the rainfall this afternoon clinging to the air. After what seems like an eternity of walking, I check the time: 8:03PM and still no word from Leo. I give up the pretense of waiting for him to text, and write him a quick message. Rai: We good? 8:04PM Not expecting a direct. Gradually, less and less your mind was operated from within myhead, and now it is all inside your head. Now, you are Meredith forgood. Now, you truly inhabit this body."I was dumbstruck. He couldn't be telling the truth. I was still I,wasn't I? I still had the same sense of ontological integrity I had hadbefore, there had never been any change, shift or transition. Andmoreover, if that actually was the truth, and our nerve signals were nolonger rerouted, shouldn't I not be me, but Meredith,. The weeks went by and I tried to avoid her ,but it wasn't that I was disgusted, I just didn't know what to think. I was still her friend and still hung out with her, and oddly enough the day she told me she liked me I didn't react badly at all. I knew she knew I was straight, but then again I didn't know if I was straight. Occasionally Stella would try to put some moves on me, but I worked my tease moves and pushed her away. A couple months until summer she told me she had a date. "Ok?" I.