We fell into a sensual deep sleep.The next morning, Curt's bumping against me while fucking Anne woke me. I looked over to see Graham's reaction but h...e and Delia were in a 69 position, pleasuring each other. I was not invited to this fucking party so I did the next best thing. I went fishing.Looking under rocks, I found bugs that I could use as bait and set out to find the right spot to fish. After an hour of casting in different places, I got a bite and caught a big catfish. Avoiding its. . . the pleasure wracked my body . . . slowing your movements . . . bit by bit . . . till you fell over onto our bed . . . i was spent . . . you hadn’t grieved . . . i was ashamed to cry . . the tears were good my love . . they healed you . . . you needed to say goodbye to him . . . yes . . i know better now . . . we grew wise with the ages . . . yes we did victoria . . . we grew wise together . . . those moments of intimacy drew us together . . . we became one . . . . they are specters of the. You are playing for twenty-five thousand dollars. You cantake any pill you want, but for every pill you take, you take one I giveyou."I ask her what pill?"Estrogen. You take two Xanax, you take two estrogen. Three for three.Okay?"Twenty-five grand was making me greedy. With the check for fifteen andmy savings, I had my apartment in Brooklyn. With forty thousand, wow.I nodded. "Twenty eight days?" I didn't see a problem cropping up. Icould do it.I went to bed that night using a third. "You've got the legs for them," she said, much too loud for comfort.The effect of those high heels on my feet and ankles held my attentionwhen I slipped them on; I suppose curiosity and the selfish pleasure ofputting another smile on her face made me do it. An unwelcome flashbackto a Jodie I had been, thoughtlessly elegant in teetering boots, had mesitting hurriedly and reaching to remove the shoes.Then I stayed my hand. My life was not going to be defined by any ofthe Jodies or Melissa. After.