I need to go sobadly. I giggle despite myself. This is all so stupid and yet I can'tstop myself. I wonder if it's the humiliation I crave. It coul...d be. Ithink it might be more though. Despite how wonderful the past few dayshave been I can't help but feel there's another level I need to reach todrive home to myself that I'm female now. Everything about this showsthe absence of my penis, practically screams it at me, and then there'sthe need for female modesty.My hand goes between my legs.. She was wearing a skimpy string bikini that hid very little and helped emphasize her sexy figure. I'd actually never seen Kathy that much undressed until that day, but my mind had undressed her numerous times based on how I'd seen her dressed when I'd be around her with her son, Doug. Now I could see the sexy large rounded tits that her blouse, tops and bras had done a fairly good job of concealing and yet hinting at having been there all along. I'd guess from her reclining position that Kathy. Each Saturday and Sunday night part of her duties was that she would walk the corridors checking that the lights were out and the boys quiet. The position came with a rather old fashioned nurses uniform, a pinafore apron, pleated dress, white hold up stockings and paper cap. This particular evening it was just after 11.15 when passing a baggage room outside a senior dormitory when she noticed a light coming from under the door. In the quiet of the night she could also hear mutterings and. Men advertise: ebony seeks ivory. she male's write: seeking mature tall, dark, and handsome... Very dark... We are not the same people who say: Race is not important... It is important to us... We have race-specific desires.Even in a time when nearly 40 percent of single Americans have dated outside their race, that deliberate seeking of the specific other makes some people, especially black women, damned mad.We are what they denigrate and castigate: white she males and mature black men who.