No awkwardness then?"Emma held out her arm for a handshake. I took her hand and we shook on it."No awkwardness."After a few more minutes we went back ...in to the Chinese and picked up our food. We drove back to the apartment with the delicious smells wafting through the car. When we got inside Becky's influence was already apparent. An ornament here, a picture there.Becky popped her head out of my bedroom door, "Come see Micky!"I walked down the hall and into the bedroom. Becky was proudly. We'd been too busy, buying houses, getting jobs, working, getting promotions, her more than me, and that magic had gone somewhere and I missed it.I opened the door just as she had her key out. I pulled her close for a hug and held her there on the doorstep for way too long. Feeling her body close to mine lifted my spirit. She was tense, her muscles on edge, full of doubt and guilt, I guessed. I hung on, holding her close until I felt her relax into me. I needed that feeling and I was desperate. Then, one afternoon, she was watching a movie as I walked into the family room and she turned it off as it ended and told me she was going up to her room. So, I turned the set on again, plopped down and looked for something to watch.I had, in the past, rented a few pay-per-view movies that were pretty hot, I guess even considered porn, maybe, to watch in my room and looking over the ones available, there was one that was supposed to be a college sex party that I started up.Well, it wasn't long. It was most unusual for the Earl to agree to the use of Grange and allow access to the grounds, this being the first time they had ever been open to the public, and even more remarkable, access to the great hall and house.You had been enjoying the myriad of craft stalls with your husband. A full programme of events from clay pigeon shooting, to fly casting and fishing techniques, show jumping and dog scurries, keeping you occupied all day, with so much to see and time running out hubby.