He could touch her luminous skin that he remembered as being sosoft. Or the way she closed her eyes and sweetly smiled as he entered her. His organthi...ckened, and he closed his eyes.He wanted her. But the guilt that washed over him along with desire tore at his soul.He was too much in love with her. He was making an idol out of her and that waswrong. He thought about her every day, moreso than God. He needed time in the chapel.To remind himself of his vow of chastity and how pure he felt when he. I was exhausted and my knees were still weak as I tried to push my self up. All of a sudden I felt strong hands pushing me back on the table. At first I thought it was Marcus who came back for more, but when I turned to look I was startled to see it was another man with a gray beard stubble, in fact, a group of men was now surrounding me and Jenny. Marcus and Jay's rowdy bunch must have followed us in here and watched the whole thing. He looked at me with his beady eyes and a sinister green . Well they were kind of like gloves, they were made out of socks, and had a thumb and one finger, and there was a pair for everyone. Matt had found a whole box of foil covered chocolate coins under some pirate costumes. He'd also found a fleece lined leather jacket near the tree. He guessed it was accidentally packed, he'd found it in a box, under a bunch of holiday decorations.He looked at the other kids, listening to Val read from the bible. They were stronger than they'd been two weeks ago,. He told me the same thing.He said he wanted to get married and do the whole straight thing, but thenhe met the guy he's with now. He said in one day he knew the truth abouthimself. Everybody else always figured he was gay, but it took him foreverto realize it. Now, he's happy like he's never been before. Go figure." I'm so sorry, Pam," I said. "I had such a good time with you and all, butit wouldn't have been right for me to lead you on. But I was afraid thatif I told you the truth..." I didn't.